Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I Love You!

I love you Bun-bun!

Here we are at our 2nd wedding anniversary!
And we're not just two anymore, but three...with the little one...
I can't imagine how next year wedding anniversary will be with the baby is around us ^^
No special plan for today since we have to pack and move to a new house.

Thanks for God for His guidance and blessings during this two years marriage life.
Thanks for San for being such a lovely and super patient hubby.
Thanks for family and friends who have supported us to walk through this journey together.

Have I said "I love you Bun-bun?"

Friday, August 6, 2010

Happy birthday, dear!

Today is San's birthday!
What shall I say except giving thanks for God who always guides him in his life. I don't prepare any special gift for him this year, but he has received many gifts he never imagined.
He is gonna be a father in a few weeks later! He is so excited when he imagines what he will do with his son...soccer, running, badminton, swimming...what he thinks is all about sport! He likes to talk with the baby in my belly and always be surprised and amazed to feel the little one's movement.
God has guided you through many circumstances and He will not leave you alone. He is in control of every single aspect in our life.
God loves you! I love you! Baby loves you, too!
Happy birthday, Daddy...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

A strong mother to be...

What I always imagined before getting married is delivering my first baby with my mother besides me. Being the only daughter in the family makes me close to Mama and Papa. To both of them, I can share many things. When I want to talk about study or work, I would talk to Papa; when it is about other things, I would call Mama.

I guess Mama has the same dream, too; that is to be able to stay close to me when I need her help the most, especially giving birth to a baby is a first time experience for me.

When I was at Church with her, a friend's mother came over and said that she invited her mother to accompany her while she gave birth to her three children. She asked why I still wanted to born my baby in Busan. The most comfortable thing is to have your mother with you before, during and after the process. I almost couldn't hold my tears. Indeed, it is not my own will to go back to Busan and struggle by myself.  

That's why Mama cried a lot when she had to leave me in the airport. I tried not to cry badly, but after she disappeared from my sight, I couldn't stand anymore. I cried deeply...

Before we took the decision, San has reminded me that God is always with us. Mama can't be here with me, but God is here with me. What I should ask for more if He is with me. It reminded me to the lyrics of Be Thou My Vision, translated into Indonesian:

Kaulah, ya Tuhan, Surya hidupku
Asal Kau ada yang lain tak perlu
Siang dan malam Engkau kukenang
Di hadiratMu jiwaku tenang

It doesn't mean that I don't need mother, father or husband; but it wants to remind me that God is my strength. Through this experience of life, God will make me stronger, a stronger mother for my baby and a stronger wife for supporting my husband.