Selly & Windy's last day

yesterday we held farewell gathering with the team for selly and windy. yesterday is selly's last day, but for windy is on next tuesday. since the days were closely, we wanted to celebrated it together. unfortunately windy didn't feel well, so she left the office after lunch.

i bought canadian pizza and five variable choices from Golden pillow. the celebration was not really cheerful as i was expected, as some of friends seemed not in good mood, few more were not in place (as we delayed the gathering as suddenly my team had an meeting) and few more seemed still busy.

anyway, after the gathering, i talked to selly and hao yauw. we talked a lot about architect, bad working hours, project management and our expectation. i was happy to know that we could pump up hao yauw's mood for his ten days more of joining KLCC competition. those team has been working non-stop even for weekend for one month.

i will miss all these new friends...starting from hangga (whom i don't know him well since he left office on my first week), jing shyan (our technical officer), hoay san (a malay cute girl who is very cheerful), selly (a smart girl!) and windy (who has made us especially indonesian team becoming happier with her gossip, jokes and everything), the next coming will be joanne and hao yauw...

friends come and go, but they will still be in my mind and my heart...

lembur

kemaren pertama kali lembur sampe 9.30pm. uda lumayan sepi, tinggal 3 org di bay sebelah lagi siapin competisi gitu, trus yg 1 lagi di bay ujung nun jauh di sana. di bay aku tinggal ak sendiri...

mata uda capek , seharian ini banyak yang dikerjain, masih ada yg salah2 juga, lupa kasi inilah, itulah...

pagi2 mestinya uda bikin daftar apa aja yang maunya dikerjain gitu, tapinya karena tiba2 boss datang dan minta ini itu, prioritas dia harus didahulukan dong ya...jadinya berubah semuanya deh...masihbanyak sih yg harus dikerjain lagi. mestinya hari ini tadi mau lembur lagi, tapi uda ah, ak di rumah aja, ngerjain d rumah baru senin dibawa ke kantor.mana blm bersih2 rumah dsbnya lagi...

td pagi uda disms si 'dita' kembaranku...hehehe...diajak bareng k kantor tapi akunya masih capek. semalaman nungguin si bapak satu itu ternyata ditinggal tidur ma dia...payah dah. pagi2 kebangun, gara2 stres semalaman langsung buat indomie dah...hehehehe ^^ duh jadi endut ni...

hari ini rencana mau buat programme buat kantor, biar sekalian belajar sama gampang trackingnya aja...harus selesai dah mlm ini...jia you!!!

bsk mo ke NUS balikin buku, uda kena denda hohoho...trusnya mo bolos katekisasi aja hahaha (kagak niat iki dita)...joking^^

anyway...kayaknya ak bisa bertahan di kantor, dan harus bertahan...memang harus belajar survive nih...pasti bisa, harus bisa!!! semangat!!!

working

I have been working for 8 days!!!

Thanks God for everything He gave me.
Actually this job kinda challenge to me as it pushes me to study and prepare everything by myself. Can say that I have to be 'greatly independent'. I just thought that 'ok, they know me as graduated master student, they must expect me to do something without a need to tell me how to do it'.

Many things happen since my first day working, I don't want to write those down here as remembering those things will just blow out my spirit and happiness. What I usually do in the morning before I enter the Studio 1@3 door is reminding myself that I need to be the light and the spirit for my team members. I can't just always feel guilty, sad, and self pity. I need to stand and bring the cheerfulness to the bay.

I still don't know how to do my work correctly, but hope that this week I can finish the programme first than take the action starting on Monday. God don't let me walk alone...I'm sure about it.

Remembering that He is with me, it makes me happy...^^

making decision in this life is not easy anyway...(1)

do you think it is easy to make a decision...if that is the decision for your life, for the WHOLE of your life...for me it is NOT EASY AT ALL!!!!

really not easy!!!

i even can't write anything now, although i have so many things inside my head even i have talked to san for 50 minutes! (this is really the first time he felt he needed to call me and let his pulse finished in one go) - thanks bun, i love you so much!... there are still a lot of ideas, conflicts in my mind.

one clue: this is about 'job hunting'.

i am going to finish my course this early of May. i need to quickly find a job.

why?

• i need to continue my life, paying room rental, food, transportation, etc.
• i need to pay back tuition fee loan.
• i want to give back to my parents
• i want to save some money for future needed (marriage, school, house?, car?)

what kind of job?

• it is suggested not to continue working in project management field. it leads you to be a leader, a project manager who manage and control.
• it is suggested to continue working as an architect who does drawing and detailing. it sounds more appropriate as a woman (who will be a wife also) to maintain a character of caring, documenting and detailing.

so, what's the problem?

• of course it is a problem! (maybe a problem for me who doesn't know what God exactly wants me to be, not realize where He is going to guide me...hikz)

to be continued...