The Last Tears

When I write this post, I believe that my dear grandmother is in heaven. She is smiling as there is no tears anymore over there with the Savior.

I spent my first 17-year in my life close to her. We live in the same town where she was born, and so was my mom. My mom had a bookshop in front of her house where I spent my time after school before we went home for lunch and afternoon break. Sometimes in the evening, I would like to go with my mom again to the bookshop and that's meant I'd visit my grandmother again.

School holidays were always perfect for me if I can stay for days at her house, tasting her delicious food, enjoying the air-conditioner in our bedrooms and *the most exciting thing* watching TV or films (mostly Chinese serial film such as Princess Huang Zhu). We usually cried together when it came to sad scenes. Everyone who found out that we're crying would say that we're so silly and funny!


My precious moment with her was when she specially came to my engagement party on 25 December 2007. I was realized that she was weak and probably wasn't able to join the party. What a surprise to see her finally made it! She joined the crowd, smiled and sang together. To see her joy and laugh was my unforgettable happiness.


Her physical condition turned bad near to my wedding day. She couldn't come to all of the events on my big day. Fortunately, she was still able to speak clearly to me when we visited her after the day. She gave advised to us as a new family. What a blessing!

She is a living testimony for all her daughters, sons and grandchildren. I often found her sitting on the desk and reading the bible. She always wrote down verses that she got from sermons and repeat reading them again at home. She is the one who I always found praying in the morning, night and before having her meals.

My mom said that she saw tears felt down from grandma's eyes before her very last breath. I believe that was the last tears. Tears of happiness as she would see Jesus and tears of sadness as she remembered the ones she loved that haven't believe in Jesus yet. Now, she is with Jesus in heaven where we will meet again someday. I can see her smiling as Jesus has wiped over her tears.

"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying; and there shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."

Revelation 21:4